*This is part of an occasional series called “Why I Write” which asks writers of all styles and backgrounds to explain what keeps them writing*
by Carol Campbell
I’m very dramatic. I have always been very dramatic. Both of my daughters are also very dramatic so I am experiencing first hand karmic debt in huge doses right now. Something about us dramatics is our need to emote, our need to explain why we do what we do.
You’ve probably met one of us dramatic types before. Have you ever been in the middle of an intense business meeting with six or seven of your colleagues and someone comes running late into the conference room with a lot of noise and not a lot of grace and gushes on and on about exactly why she was late?
I am she.
The need to write has always been there. The need to explain and justify my feelings, my actions. I’m sure it’s a character flaw but the therapy has been marvelous. Writing is therapy.
The more serious element, though, is the creative side. I feel like if I’m not in the process of creating, I am dying. Okay, I know, the drama again. But I’ll argue this one.
To take the words and stretch them into larger shapes that grow and plant their own seeds in places you don’t expect but follow nonetheless, that’s the lure. The shapes become their own entities, nurtured and tended by you. The nurturing is reciprocal, the shapes are the bread crumbs to nibble on until you’ve molded and coaxed it into a larger mass. Greater satisfaction comes after clearing little hurdles of several masses; such small accomplishments give you the confidence to go on to part 2, the second chapter or the 3rd blog.
The hardest part in writing is making room and time for yourself and putting it all down on paper or computer screen, never mind the junk that comes along with the propelled stream of intentions that funnel from your head to your pen. You can always clean it up later. This is so important – to sit and batter away at the keys when the spirit moves you. DON’T try to make it pretty. Yet.
Hemingway said it best: write when you’re drunk, edit when you’re sober.
Carol is the creator of Crone Stones, a women’s meditation oracle and The Goddess Diaries, a series of monologues and musical performance that raises funds and awareness for women’s charities. Carol is a regular contributor on the hit satellite radio show, Broadminded, where she empowers listeners by drawing on myth and ancient imagery to find answers related to body image, relationships and new opportunities. Visit www.carolleecampbell.com for more about her work.